looktothelight's Journal

Quite a bit I have learned recently. Where to start?

First of all, spiders have a very interesting wisdom. They are throat-chakra creatures, though I am not totally sure why (potentially this is actually third-eye, but I see them as being indigo or navy, which I associate with the throat chakra... I see the third eye as being cerulean or violet).

On a personal level, as a result of the migraine, I have realized that I constantly shift pieces of who I am "being," when it would be a lot easier to just be me. Not Me the New Ageist, or Me the Charming Twentysomething, or Me the Nervous Sex Object, or Me the Wit, but just me in whatever I am at the moment, without analysis or refinement or judgment. I have so many fractured bits of personality hanging around that I wear like clothes. Yet none of them serve me like just being.

The migraine may have been caused by many things, yet looking past circumstance (which most often conspires to bring you what you want), I think it may have blown out a chakra or two- perhaps over-stretched them. Or I may have taken my patient's energy into me during my last healing session, as I was working shamanistically. My third eye feels strangely dull and my crown chakra as well, though not as strongly. Upon cleaning them I feel a little lighter there. I will request extra healings and clearing.

Oh, and the yellow-aura-ed being who keeps showing up during readings and healings I perform is Stephanie. I've been told about her many times, right down to the yellow, but just never noticed her. Subtle. Well, yeah, it only took me a couple years to figure that one out. I like her; she's very light and loving.

Recently I have had some scary success with channelling. It's definitely my favorite of all the psy ways to play. I still want to work with psychokinetics, but I'm waiting for the time to be ripe. I waited plenty of time to channel, and now it's effortless and fun. I am sure whatever I want to do will happen someday.

Current Mood: contemplative

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